Long time no blog

Hi guys. I know I haven't posted anything substantial in a while. I'd like to say that I was busy revising, but to be honest I don't think I did more than 8 hours total revision for my three exams. I might have passed two of them, it's highly unlikely I passed the third. But they're over and done with. Actually they were over and done with last week. I've spent the past week doing sod all. Sleeping, playing World of Warcraft (yes, I've been sucked into the cult, blame N), knitting, watching tv shows on my laptop and generally doing bugger all. It's been good.

The best bit has been N. I haven't seen him since Monday last week, but he's still off work so we've been texting/msning/googletalking pretty much non-stop. It's a lot like things were when we first met, which is nice. When we met he was on a high point, but not on the fluoxtine. All the troubles we had were related to his depression or my depression, and things have definitely been hard. But I love him, and as he keeps telling me, he loves me too. I keep telling myself that it won't last, that he's just on a high and that he'll go back to the Hyde N I've written so much about, but the truth is that he might not. If he stays on the fluoxetine, he should stay the way he is. And I pray to God and Buddha and Mohammad, and every other deity I've ever denied the existence of, that he does. Even if we don't make it this time and we do break up and he ends up with someone else (grrrrr, mine!!). Even if he spends his life alone, or married to some other tart, or in a gay relationship, I hope he stays on those pills because they make him a happy person. He doesn't just drift, he actually enjoys himself. And I want him to be a happy person more than anything else in the world.

In other news, I've dispensed with my hard copy New Things scrapbook, but I'll still be posting blogs. I have two or three things to catch up on, but I will get around to it at some point. Possibly.