It just occurred to me that my regrets and nostalgia in the previous post may have overshadowed the fact that I am INSANELY happy for my friend.
I don't want her to read that post and get upset with me again. So I'm adding this one to let her know that despite everything that's happened between us, I LOVE HER!!! I love her as much as I did when we were Befri and Stend, and I am ridiculously happy for her. I'm here for whatever she needs me for, as always :-)
Regrets
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Every morning when I wake up, before I even get out of bed, I grab my phone and check a few websites/apps. Twitter, FML, Cheezburger and Facebook. This morning I found on Facebook the wonderful news that my friend is engaged. Apparently her boyfriend is a traditionalist. Proposal on Valentine's Day. I have yet to find out the actual details, but just the date (and the fact that it happened) will have been enough for her. I wonder what the ring looks like.
And that's the reason the title of this blog is "Regrets". That I have to wonder what the ring looks like, and that I don't know the details. This is the same friend who fell out with me after a blog post last year. Two years ago, I would have been the first person she'd told. She would have called me or messaged me right after she'd spoken to her mum.
We're speaking again after falling out, but things are different. We're not as close as we once were, and I regret that immensely. I don't regret that blog post last year, but I regret upsetting her, and I regret that it destroyed our friendship.
I had a very bad day yesterday, and I'm having trouble dealing with my current status as single and alone, but I am so incredibly happy for her. We were best friends through some disastrous relationships, and some that we thought would be forever but weren't. We were best friends though good times, and dodgy times, and hilarious times, and not-quite-moral times, and rich times, and broke times, and all sorts of times. I guess it's natural for lives to change and for people to drift apart, but I've never been comfortable with that. I miss all the friends I've ever had that I've lost, and I'd give anything for a chance to have most of them back. I'd give anything to have my friendship with this particular friend repair itself. But she's busy. She has a full-time job that involves a commute, and she has a new house, and now she has a wedding to plan.
Which brings me to my wish.
When we were both in happy, committed relationships that we thought were forever, she and I developed a mildly crazy happy of reading wedding magazines and preparing scrapbooks for our dream wedding. We'd talk and talk and plan and plan, and we both KNEW for certain, without any shadow of a doubt, that we'd be heavily involved in each other's weddings. I'm insanely happy for her, but at the same time I'm a little worried. I'm worried that I won't get to be as involved as I once would have been. I'd certainly understand if I wasn't, but it would be kinda like the proof that we aren't as close as we were, and I don't want that. I'm happy living in denial, and hapless hope that one day we'll go back to the way we were.
I wish her (and her fiance) all the best, and I want her to know that I am here for any help she might need with planning, or not.
Hmmm, I should find a wedding present idea and start crafting. I will NOT be making a quilt though.
And that's the reason the title of this blog is "Regrets". That I have to wonder what the ring looks like, and that I don't know the details. This is the same friend who fell out with me after a blog post last year. Two years ago, I would have been the first person she'd told. She would have called me or messaged me right after she'd spoken to her mum.
We're speaking again after falling out, but things are different. We're not as close as we once were, and I regret that immensely. I don't regret that blog post last year, but I regret upsetting her, and I regret that it destroyed our friendship.
I had a very bad day yesterday, and I'm having trouble dealing with my current status as single and alone, but I am so incredibly happy for her. We were best friends through some disastrous relationships, and some that we thought would be forever but weren't. We were best friends though good times, and dodgy times, and hilarious times, and not-quite-moral times, and rich times, and broke times, and all sorts of times. I guess it's natural for lives to change and for people to drift apart, but I've never been comfortable with that. I miss all the friends I've ever had that I've lost, and I'd give anything for a chance to have most of them back. I'd give anything to have my friendship with this particular friend repair itself. But she's busy. She has a full-time job that involves a commute, and she has a new house, and now she has a wedding to plan.
Which brings me to my wish.
When we were both in happy, committed relationships that we thought were forever, she and I developed a mildly crazy happy of reading wedding magazines and preparing scrapbooks for our dream wedding. We'd talk and talk and plan and plan, and we both KNEW for certain, without any shadow of a doubt, that we'd be heavily involved in each other's weddings. I'm insanely happy for her, but at the same time I'm a little worried. I'm worried that I won't get to be as involved as I once would have been. I'd certainly understand if I wasn't, but it would be kinda like the proof that we aren't as close as we were, and I don't want that. I'm happy living in denial, and hapless hope that one day we'll go back to the way we were.
I wish her (and her fiance) all the best, and I want her to know that I am here for any help she might need with planning, or not.
Hmmm, I should find a wedding present idea and start crafting. I will NOT be making a quilt though.
2012 Fantabulous Things: 76-100
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76) Reconnecting with an old friend
77) Red Dwarf - rumour is that it's coming back!
78) Reeses pieces
79) Refresher chews
80) Relaxing in a hot bubble bath with a good book
81) Russell Brand - I saw him live once. My friends and I went to the filming of the Big Fat Quiz of the Year 2007. He was hilarious.
82) Russell Howard - very funny man, and kinda cute too.
83) Sanctuary - the tv show.
84) Sausage and cheese muffins - I make these every Christmas. They're scrumptious.
85) Sherbert burps
86) Sleep
87) Slush puppies
88) Slush puppies with a splash of alcohol
89) Smallville - the tv show
90) Smell of fresh cut grass
91) Smiley face sweets - I may have a mild addiction
92) Sorting paperwork - except when it's regarding my debts
93) Sorting yarn
94) Stephen Fry
95) Stephen Fry and Alan Davies - I'd go and see Stephen Fry anytime, but I'm not sure about Alan Davies on his own. Ripping off Stephen in QI he's excellent. He's coming to Stoke in October - maybe I'll give him a shot.
96) Stickers
97) Superman
98) Supernatural - the tv show
99) Sweet potato biscuits/scones
100) Tall glass of cold orange juice
77) Red Dwarf - rumour is that it's coming back!
78) Reeses pieces
79) Refresher chews
80) Relaxing in a hot bubble bath with a good book
81) Russell Brand - I saw him live once. My friends and I went to the filming of the Big Fat Quiz of the Year 2007. He was hilarious.
82) Russell Howard - very funny man, and kinda cute too.
83) Sanctuary - the tv show.
84) Sausage and cheese muffins - I make these every Christmas. They're scrumptious.
85) Sherbert burps
86) Sleep
87) Slush puppies
88) Slush puppies with a splash of alcohol
89) Smallville - the tv show
90) Smell of fresh cut grass
91) Smiley face sweets - I may have a mild addiction
92) Sorting paperwork - except when it's regarding my debts
93) Sorting yarn
94) Stephen Fry
95) Stephen Fry and Alan Davies - I'd go and see Stephen Fry anytime, but I'm not sure about Alan Davies on his own. Ripping off Stephen in QI he's excellent. He's coming to Stoke in October - maybe I'll give him a shot.
96) Stickers
97) Superman
98) Supernatural - the tv show
99) Sweet potato biscuits/scones
100) Tall glass of cold orange juice
Discworldathon
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I tend to do most of my reading in one of three places. While I'm on the bus, while I'm in the little girl's room, or while I'm in the bath.
Yesterday while I was out doing errands I finished book 2, and got a fifth of the way into book 3. Book 3 is Equal Rites, which is the first book in the Witches Trilogy. Some of my Discworld books are in Anthologies, like the Witches Trilogy. Nice big hefty books. Not so convenient for on a bus.
Last night I went to have a bath, and took the hefty anthology with me. I finished Equal Rites, but I wasn't quite ready to get out of the bath yet, so I started with Wyrd Sisters. This aggravated me a little, because I'd made the decision to read the books in publishing order, but I REALLY wasn't ready to get out of the bath yet, and Wyrd Sisters is only book 6.
I like the bath. I was in there a while. I finished book 6.
So to summarise... 4 books read, 35 to go
Yesterday while I was out doing errands I finished book 2, and got a fifth of the way into book 3. Book 3 is Equal Rites, which is the first book in the Witches Trilogy. Some of my Discworld books are in Anthologies, like the Witches Trilogy. Nice big hefty books. Not so convenient for on a bus.
Last night I went to have a bath, and took the hefty anthology with me. I finished Equal Rites, but I wasn't quite ready to get out of the bath yet, so I started with Wyrd Sisters. This aggravated me a little, because I'd made the decision to read the books in publishing order, but I REALLY wasn't ready to get out of the bath yet, and Wyrd Sisters is only book 6.
I like the bath. I was in there a while. I finished book 6.
So to summarise... 4 books read, 35 to go
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