Showing posts with label Maine. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Maine. Show all posts

2nd Crochetversary - Mammoth Secret Project Reveal


Two years ago today (well, Tuesday actually) I was in America. Living at the University of Southern Maine. I decided that I wanted to learn how to crochet. Technically I'd wanted to know several months before hand, but I just couldn't get it. I tried and failed many times to even start off. But at this time, sat at my desk in Phillippi Hall, I decided I was going to learn, damnit!

To YOUTUBE!!!

I watched several dozen videos, and eventually taught myself. And I made this:



And once I figured out that I could do it, I just didn't stop. I kept going and going. I made several little amigurumis those few months in America,and now I'm making huge things. Like the Mammoth Secret Project, which I can finally reveal!

My little sister Jennie got married last November. Last April I started making her and her husband a purple quilt. It took a really, really long time. They opened the parcel a few days ago, only 10 months late.






I'm quite chuffed with it :-)

Here's to many more years of crochet.

My Pledge

Most of this will be of absolutely no interest to anyone who reads my blog, but it's my promise to myself, and I feel like if it is out in public then it's official and I have to stick to it.

So, I love New York City. I LOVE New York City. I've been a few times now. I went for my birthday for 10 days in 2005. And I went twice while I was out in Maine for four months in 2009. And I want to go back. All the time. Constantly! My ultimate dream is to live there one day. And I've decided that for my 30th birthday next year I'm going back. I've never been there WITH anyone before, but hopefully that'll happen in a few years when Cayden can afford it (we're going to cross off "Christmas in New York" from my bucket list). But I'm going back next year. Decision made.

Can I afford it? No.

Is that going to stop me? No.

Since last year my financial common sense has improved incredibly. I'm paying off my debts, slowly, and I'm paying my bills when I'm supposed to. I still owe quite a lot of money, and one debt that specifically gets on my mind is the money that I owe Neil. I'm currently going through a severe spring-cleaning phase and seling lots that I own on eBay. And I'm also opening an Etsy store in a few months that should make a bit of money.

I don't think any of this is coming out in any sense of order. Bear with me.

In 2010 I did that New Thing: Challenges thing, for the year. The reward system was that for every challenge I passed I got to save a certain amount of money, and for each challenge that I failed, I had to donate the same amount of money. Because I'm me, I didn't save or donate anything, but I did keep records of all the amounts. This year, I'm doing Project 200, and for each piece that I complete I get to save £1.50. There have been a few things that I was saving for, but New York has just overtaken all of them in importance.

I have a tin, that I save all the money in. And to make sure that I actually save, a good friend looks after the tin for me. So far this year I saved a bit of money, but had to break into it to pay my broadband bill last month. So the saving has restarted. But... every penny earned from eBay will go into the tin. Every penny earned from Etsy will go into the tin.

I'm also going to crack down on what I spend my money on each payday. I tend to buy a lot of crap. I'm going to write "New York" on my wallet, to remind myself why I'm saving. And I'm going to consciously think about whether or not I'm buying something because I WANT it or because I NEED it. (Yes, I know this is just everyday common sense, but I don't have any of that). All my spare money will go towards this trip.

Throughout this year, I'm clearing quite a few of my debts, too. Which means that I'll have more money every fortnight. Except that I won't. I'm going to stick to the bare basics I'm on now, and put the extra money towards the trip.

But (and here's where the pledge is important)... I still owe Neil quite a bit of money. I owe Jen a little, and my sister, and Cayden too. None of them will ever ask me for the money, even though every single one could use it. Especially Neil. And the money I owe him is actually quite a big amount. So... even if I have my flight paid off, and the hotel all booked, and all my dollars in my wallet...

I will not go to New York next year unless I have paid back Cayden, Jen and Jennie. And at least half of what I owe Neil.

All I have to do now is go and rewrite the list of stuff I have to do next payday. I'm now not buying quite a few bits, and I need to factor in a bus ticket to the blood donation centre. I wish they paid for blood in this country. And I wish I could have a garage sale. So much easier than eBay, and less fees.

Anyway... All this I pledge, in the name of New York City!

State of life at the moment

I have a horrible headache. Evil, migraine-like, headache. Aside from that...

I have just officially reapplied to Keele. I finally got a reference for my UCAS application, and I finished my icky, evil personal statement. Paid the stupid fee, and the application is sent off.

I regret dropping out of Keele last year. I messed it up, and I hate myself for that. If I'd had the student loan years I would have switched degrees instead of just dropping out. But you only get five years of student loan, and I used 1 doing half an HND a while ago. So I had to drop out.

However... a while ago Cayden told me he'd heard a rumour that only the tuition fee loan has a limit. In theory, I can get unlimited maintainence loans. I called the Student Loan people and confirmed this. It's up to one person to review my application and make the decision. If I can get a student loan, I can pay the tuition fee with that, and use my incapacity benefit to exist as I have been... but back at University.

But there are a lot of "if"s. Keele might not accept me. Even if they do, the Student Loan people might not give me any money. If there's no money, I can not afford to go back. And this is the last year possible for this opportunity. Starting next year tuition fees go up to £9000 a year, which is waaayyy too much.

There's not a lot I can do now but wait. If I get a consideration letter from Keele I can apply for the Student Loan. Just gotta wait for that letter.

I've applied to do Film Studies with Media, Communications and Culture. Bit of a mouthful, isn't it? But I have a history in film and media, and it's something I'd enjoy. As long as no one tries to make me get in front of the camera. But we'll see.

There is another possible with this. If I get accepted into Keele, I could have the chance to do Study Abroad all over again. IF the Study Abroad department lets me. I'm going to Keele regardless of whether I spend that semester in England or in America, but the chance to have that do-over would be incredible. I've wanted to study in America since I was five. I wanted to go to Kindergarten, and Junior High and High School and College. It was item number 1 on my bucket list, and I blew it. I completely wasted the opportunity that I was given in 2009, and I hate myself for that. If I get the chance to do it again, I'm going to do my damnedest to not blow it.

It'll be harder financially, but Cayden is helping me save. Every spare pound I get goes to him and he puts it in a tin for me. When I get Student Loans, I'll pay tuition fee, and get a bus ticket, but the rest of it will go to him to save for study abroad. But that's a whole other IF. And not one I need to think about for a while.

In the meantime... I'm still working on Project 200. Lots of crafting going on at the moment. There are six works in progress just within my eyesight, another one that just needs some buttons adding to it, and another that I'm about to start.

I have a daily routine. Admittedly I slept a bit late today, but I've had Cayden here for two weeks and he's helped me get into a routine of getting up no later than 11.30 and going to bed no later than 12.30. I'm gonna try and stick to that now that he's gone, but no guarantees.

There are a lot of other thoughts and emotions and things that are going on in me right now, mostly about Neil. I'm not quite sure how to begin to express them, because I'm very conscious of who reads this blog, and who doesn't. I'm still talking to Neil. I've been talking to him a lot recently, flirting and chatting, and discussing some emotional stuff. And certain people don't approve of that. I know they're just worried about me getting hurt again, but I'm.... Aaarrrggghhhh. It's a mess. It's hard to describe how I feel. And I KNOW that I'm just asking to end up hurting again as long as I keep talking to him, but I can't stop, and I don't want to. Urgh. Maybe my thoughts about this will make a little more sense in a few days. Highly unlikely, but maybe.

Banana Cream Pie

So, when I was in Maine last year, I tried banana cream pie for the first time at Thanksgiving. It is absolutely delicious. And I decided that I wanted to try making one. This week, while at my mother's, I finally got around to it. Basically because most of the ingrediants are things like flour and sugar and butter and milk. The sort of things that normal people have in the back of a cupboard, but I don't.

First of all I tried this recipe. Several things went wrong. The pie crust I brought from Sainsbury's got broken up on the way home, I forgot to buy vanilla but figured it wouldn't make much difference (I was wrong) and then there was the cooking. I stirred constantly, but I'm not used to stirring and didn't realise you needed to scrap the bottom of the pan. Seems like common sense now, but there you go. So the filling had burnt bits in it, and no vanilla. Then the recipe called
for baking it, and the bananas went all gross. It was digusting. The top of the filling congealed, but the rest of it was the same and still gross.

But, I REALLY liked that banana pie, and I wanted to try again. Today was take two. I used this recipe.

I remembered the vanilla this time, and even though I used caster sugar instead of granulated like the recipe called for, and only 3 eggs, because i didn't read it properly, this time I didn't let it burn, and it was delicious. Well, the filling was. I put it all together and it looks liked this...



Even before tasting it's a billion times better than attempt number one. Taste wise, it was yummy. A little strange though. I don't like cold custard, ever since a childhood incident, I've never been able to stomach it. I tend to avoid cold custard desserts, so I don't think Marnie's pie at Thanksgiving was a custardy one, but this pie I made is. I ate it, and it tasted nice, but it was very strange eating a custardy dessert after so many years of avoiding it. I'm gonna see if I can get a different recipe.

Meanwhile, here are the baking lessons I've learned:

1) scrap the bottom of the pan while stirring
2) vanilla may be small, but it's a very important ingredient
3) egg yolks are very hard to separate from egg whites
4) "stirring constantly" means stirring constantly - get all the ingredients ready BEFORE you start
5) wait for the filling to cool before you add the cream to the top,
or the cream will melt ten seconds after you take the photograph

I want to try more baking. I have plenty of recipe books at home. Maybe it's time I got that flour and sugar and stuff that everyone has in their cupboards.

And so 2009 comes to an end....

It's here. New Year's Eve 2009. And jesus did it take it's time getting here. It's been a hell of a year. All kinds of good and bad results from it too. Despite spending four whole months being miserable in another country, the first thing that comes to mind from 2009 is getting back with Neil. Getting back with him and still successfully being with him. And he's been wonderful. We still have issues, but then most couples do. We're learning how to cope with each other's foibles, and we're doing okay. Hopefully we'll keep doing okay too. I love him very very much, in case you didn't already know.

But 2009 hasn't just been about Neil. It's been about struggling through university, and eventually making the decision to drop out. It's been about finding new books and new tv shows to follow. It's been about getting more tattoos. It's been about joining Ravelry and doing a million swaps - the best way to get fun post ever. It's been about losing friends and making friends. It's been about ridiculously bad financial decisions. It's been about coping with my depression better than other years, in some ways. It's been about still having writer's block but gathering the energy to do something about it. It's been about adding more crafts to my repertoire. And most significantly, I guess, it's been about the completion of a life long dream.

Ever since I can remember I've wanted to go to school in America. Those who know me know of my ever-so-mild obsession with the USA, and when I was very young I wanted to go to Kindergarten out there, then I wanted to go to junior high, then I wanted to go to high school, then I wanted to go to college. This year I got to attend an American university for four months. It was quite literally a dream come true. It wasn't quite what I expected though. I'm very glad I went, but I'm also very glad it's over. It was an interesting experience, and I don't regret going, but I did spend most of my time wishing I was back at home.

The educational part of the trip was kind of interesting - particularly Libby's History of Maine course - but most of it was boring as hell and made me realise how boring my degree course is in general. I love studying, but I've come to develop a minor hatred for the Humanities. I don't like having definite answers. I've been doing little minor maths courses online, and it's so nice to have a definite wrong or right answer. You don't have that in Humanities, and it's frustrating as hell. While I was in America I realised that I didn't want to continue with my degree course, and I made the decision to drop out of university. This decision has been recieved by friends and family in varying degrees of horror and disapproval, but I don't really care. It's my decision. And it's not like I'm planning to spend the next year doing nowt but sleeping (there will be a later post for my plans).

I didn't make friends very well in America, and this greatly affected my enjoyment out there. I did a lot of things alone, like my trip to Boston and New York, and my random travels on buses. I did make two wonderful friends though, who did marvellous things for me and helped me out immensely and I can't imagine how I'd have felt about my trip if those two hadn't been there.

I'm beginning to ramble a bit. My point is this: I'm very glad I went, there were lots of fun times, eventually I'll forget the bad stuff, I don't regret going but I'm glad it was over. It was a chance in a lifetime and I will never attempt to talk anyone out of doing the same thing, but I am very very glad to be home. Plus, after all that palaver at the airport and coming home, I'm slightly less enamoured with America as I used to be.

In a few hours it'll be a whole new year and (for those who aren't pedants) a whole new decade. I have my resolutions, I have my plans. I'll write another post about those. Maybe tonight, but possibly not. Since my Neil is here and we plan to see in the New Year eating chocolate ice cream and being nerdy and "sorting out the post."

Have a great night bloggers, and see you next year!

Getting home

When I bought my flight to come out to America for this study abroad trip, the return trip was meant to be a flight from Portland to New York on December 20th, and then a flight from New York the same day arriving in London early next morning.

It's December 23rd, and I'm still in New York.

There has been a big big snow storm in the USA that has completely screwed up the travel plans of hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of people I don't care about, as well as my own plans. I woke up Sunday, ready to leave USM and Portland, only to find out that my flight had been cancelled. Cue a lot of swearing. The Delta website informs me that my flight has been reassigned to one on Christmas Eve, changing in Atlanta to arrive in London early Christmas Day. Cue a lot more swearing. NOT GOOD. I wanted to go home.

After crying a lot, swearing a lot, and speaking to Neil online a lot, we discovered that the second leg of my journey - the New York to London bit - was still flying. It was only the Portland to New York flight that was cancelled. We figured that if I could get to New York I could still catch that second leg. So Neil brought me a flight with Jet Blue that lunch time, getting to New York in plenty of time.

Note: I spent all day calling Delta every three or four minutes - engaged. Constantly.

The Jet Blue flight was cancelled. Cue more crying. Cue more swearing. Cue breaking into my suitcase to eat Christmas presents. Cue throwing soft toys around the room in a temper tantrum.

Jet Blue transferred me to a flight early on Monday morning. By which time I was already meant to be at home :( The original second leg went off to England okay, albeit delayed, so I assumed that New York was the best place to be. More flights available to London. So, Monday morning I hopped in a taxi and went off to Portland airport. Checked in.

Oh wait... my baggage was too heavy. Both suitcases. I needed to pay $130. I didn't have $130 so I dragged my bags outside and cried for a bit. Then I dragged them back in to a bench by a bin and went through everything throwing stuff away. Resorting the stuff I kept - mainly filling my carry on backpack with books. Heavy heavy books.

This time when I checked in the bags were fine. So I went through security - only needed to go through the metal detector three times. Yay. Got to the gate - flight delayed. Urgh! I ended up in a bar/pub getting food and had a very nice lunch. The flight left late, but it went and I got safely to New York.

Woohoo! After spending an hour waiting for Jet Blue to spit my luggage out, I dragged my tired ass to the next terminal to go find a Delta desk and put myself on a flight to London. I queued. I queued some more. I watched people yell. I watched people cut the queue and watched other people scream at them. And finally I got to the desk. I explained the story to the dude at the desk, who informed me that since my rearranged flight was to go to Atlanta, there was nothing he could do and I was in the wrong place.

Cue more swearing, more tears. He gave me a phone number and told me to call them to get them to reissue my ticket. First of all I found a quiet corner of the airport and sat and cried for twenty minutes. When I could speak (sort of) I called Neil, who listened to me sob for a bit and said nice things and was generally wonderful. Then I sat and waited for those crying hiccups to subside, and I called the Delta helpline number. Engaged. I tried again. Engaged. Half hour later it rang and I got put on hold. Half hour later I explained the whole story to some guy who typed a little on his computer then told me that he had to transfer me to the international flights people. More time on hold, until I finally speak to a woman who listened to the whole story, fiddled with her computer for a bit and told me there was nothing she could do. I had to go back to Portland. Oh, or she could put me on a flight from New York on Wednesday, if I paid $1300. I told her I had to sort stuff out, but I'd probably be going back to Portland and taking the 'original' Portland-Atlanta-London flight. She said to make sure I call back, or go to the desk to reconfirm.

More tears. Lots more tears. I called Neil. This is where my wonderful knight in shining geek t-shirts saved my day some more. He brought me a Jet Blue flight BACK to Portland. And he sent me a couple of hundred pounds so I could make a reservation in a hotel near Portland airport and get some food to last me til Christmas Eve. The man is amazing.

So, to clarify, my new schedule: it's Monday. I have to stay in the airport til the 7.30am flight back to Portland, check into a hotel, go back to the airport on Thursday and get a flight to Atlanta, then a flight to London and arrive home on Christmas morning. Sucky, but that was the plan. I just had to go to the desk to reconfirm.

I queued. I queued some more. I queued a little bit longer. It didn't bother me, I had a book. I had all night to spend in the airport anyway, so I was fine. Then I get to the desk and speak to Miguel. I explain, he types in my details, then tells me I'm not booked on any flights.

I didn't cry. I didn't swear. I was too shocked. I nearly passed out. I wanted to just dig a hole in the floor right there and give up. Miguel asks me to tell him the whole story. So I do. Everything. He just looks at me, says that it was obviously the airline's fault and said he'd book me into a business class seat on Wednesday, from New York. I asked him how much that'd cost me and he said nothing. I almost jumped over the desk and kissed him. The man is an angel!

I called Neil back and told him that as long as he cancelled the Jet Blue flight before it departed he should get some money back (he overslept), and then I cancelled the hotel reservation in Portland. I headed down to the arrivals lounge to see if I could get a room in a hotel. Only ones available were $250 a night, and higher. Way beyond my budget for two nights. So I got a $50 taxi into the city, booked myself into the Hostelling International place I stayed at when I came here in November ($60 for two nights) and promptly fell asleep.

Yesterday I spent in bed mostly, reading and websurfing. I also had to repack, again. The suitcase my sister had lent me finally died. The stand was broken, a wheel gave out, the zipper was buggered. Not good. I went through everything and threw some more stuff away until everything fit in the one bag I brought at Walmart, my backpack and my satchel. Plus, I had the most horrendous headache. A combination of normal headaches, crying all day, stress and the heat in the hostel drying me out. Not good. But I woke up this morning and my flight hadn't been cancelled. Yay!

So here I am. Check out at the hostel was 11am, my flight doesn't leave til 7.15pm, but I wasn't gonna lug my bags around New York all day, so I got a taxi straight to the airport. Wasn't expecting to be able to check in for a few hours, but within five minutes I was checked in, through the special business-class security and sat in the departures lounge calling Mum to let her know what was going on.

I'm now sat in the Sky Club - very posh - waiting for my flight. I get to go home, finally! It's been a stressful few days, and I've spent more time crying than I do when in the midst of an episode, but I'm okay. In a few hours I get on that plane and can fall asleep until I get back to England.

The moral of this story - Don't fly Delta. EVER!

Things I Have Learned About Maine, part 2

16) USM has the second best map library in the United States. Beaton only by Harvard, which is pretty impressive.

17) The only person ever to be executed in the US for slave trading was Nathaniel Gordon, a ship's captain from Portland, Maine.

18) The first mosque in the USA was in Maine.

19) The last Shakers in the world are in Maine.

20) People in Maine - possibly in the whole US - undo their seatbelts before they turn their car engine off. I don't know why I have noticed this. I just have. Yes, I'm weird.

New Thing # 50

Date:- December 16th 2009
New Thing:- Try eggnog

I've never had eggnog before. And here in America they go all out for everything, and that includes filling supermarket shelves with rows and rows of eggnog. My good friend Branden can't get enough of the stuff. So I brought some to try.



This eggnog comes with lots of karma added too. Karma point 1: Oakhurst is a local company, so I'm supporting local workers. Karma point 2:



Karma point 3:



See, all kinds of good karma. And this one is just because it made me giggle.



My eggnog expires on Christmas Eve. How cool is that?

Anyway, on to the tasting. It smelt like slightly odd banana milkshake, and tasted like slightly odd banana milkshake too. Initial taste was nice. Creamy and sweet, but it comes with a nutmeg aftertaste, which apparently I don't like. So, now I know. I don't like eggnog. But I'd never have known if I hadn't tried. And even if I didn't finish drinking it, I still get the karma points.

Christmas snuck up on me

So, yesterday was not that good of a day. In fact I think I did absolutely nothing aside from watch stuff on my laptop, cry, throw temper tantrums and sulk. I ended up crying myself to sleep about 6 or 7 o'clock. Not good.

So today will be better. I woke up at about 4 this morning, have caught up with my shows and taken a shower, as well as finished packing absolutely everything aside from stuff to go in my carry on. I've looked up some classes to take in the spring: a cooking class, a silversmithing class and a fused glass jewellery class. I've found some reading groups to go to, a writing group and a knitting group. I will keep myself busy. But I'll be posting a detailed 2010 Plan nearer the end of the year.

I'm going to go over to the cafeteria in a bit, after I've watched Men of a Certain Age and Legend of the Seeker. I'm taking my laptop, a book, my notebook and a puzzle book. I plan on staying in there all day. Obviously staying in my room alone is not good for me, so I'll go sit where there are people and free(ish) food and get on with my stuff. I'll get to socialise a little, and maybe not be quite so miserable.

In the meantime, it's Christmas next week. NEXT WEEK! I've been so focused on getting home and getting back to Neil that although I knew it was coming up to Christmas it didn't really sink in, until just now. Christmas is NEXT FRIDAY!

I hope everyone has a good Christmas/Hannukah/Yule/Kwanzaa etc etc. I do love Christmas, I just haven't been in exactly the right frame of mind for it this year.

Change of plans?

Today I was supposed to go to an animal preserve and to walmart with my friend Marnie. Normally she calls the night before to let me know what time she'll be picking me up, however my roommate moved out at the weekend taking the phone with her. I messaged Marnie online and let her know I wasn't contactable by phone and to let me know timing by Facebook message. This was early Saturday.

It's Tuesday morning and I've received no message from Marnie. So I don't know what's happening now. I'm a little concerned cos Marnie is usually very good at staying in touch. I'm also a little concerned on a purely paranoid and selfish level, because Marnie was supposed to give me my lift to the airport on Sunday and I'm worrying that I'll get stood up now. Completely paranoid, but there you go. That's the sort of person that I am.

I don't know why I'm writing it on here, but I've already messaged Neil and he's busy at work and can't come and sooth my issues. I should do something. I know, I'll continue reading the archives of MLIA like I have been doing, but that plan is out cos the stupid website is down. I could.... oh wait, I can't do anything cos I have no life!

I really am a miserable sod aren't I. I have plenty to do. I have the body and tail of a reindeer in my drawer that needs feet and a face. I have a million writing prompts I want to start doing to work out my writer's block. I have three new things left to do before the end of the year. I have maths online that I want to revise. I have books to read. I'm in a beautiful state; I could go for a walk. I could pull on my boots and go crunching around in the snow. I could make a snowman. I could go make those snow angels I never got around to doing. Lots of things I could do. In fact, I'm going to snap out of my stupid mood and go do something. First up, a shower.

It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas

Here are a few pictures of our suite all decorated up, and of the snow fall we've had recently...







Here are some I took during one of my I'm-all-artistic phases.







I spotted this while out with a friend the other day. USPS, I strongly approve.



I've been waiting all semester for it to snow, and this week it finally did. We had several inches over the weekend and I took a few pictures. I was trying to capture the amazing sparkle that the snow out here has. I'm not sure if I got it or not.





And then today it started snowing at about 6.30 this morning and it hasn't stopped yet, nearly 12 hours later. These were taken about five hours ago.






Part of me wants to go out and play in it, but I kinda don't at the same time. I had a small fondle the other day and the snow was so soft and powdery, totally unlike anything I've ever been in contact with. I want to go out and make a snow angel, and build a proper snowman, but something is holding me back. I don't know what it is, but for the moment I'm heeding it. Of course, I'm not feeling well and going out to play in snow will probably not do me any good. I don't think the snow is going away anytime soon, so I'll have a chance to play before I go. But for now I'm content looking at it from safe indoors.

New Thing # 45

Date:- August 24th - December 20th 2009
New Thing:- Live in student dorms

Since I lived in the town already when I applied to go to Keele University, it made no sense for me to live in the student accommodation. It would have meant paying to keep all of my belongings (at the time I had a flat-full of furniture) in storage, and getting rid of my cat, only to be homeless at the end of each year. So I was an off-campus student. As a result, living in dorms here in Maine is my first experience of living in dorms.



I kind of lucked out. They put all the international students in the newest dorm on campus, so it's really swish and neat. I like it. I got put in a suite - two bedrooms with two people in each, with a common area and a bathroom. I could quite happily transport this apartment to England to be my home. Turn the second bedroom into a craft room. Perfect. :-)

I was a little worried about the dorm thing, having lived in a YMCA before. That was utter hell. But it hasn't been too bad. It's a little weird actually sharing a bedroom with someone; I haven't done that since I was a little teeny weeny girl and shared a room with my sister. There is a lot of extraneous noise, from upstairs and from the corridors and things, and we have a lot of rules. Not allowed to light candles, have certain cooking equipment and certain types of lamps. After seven pm we have to sign guests in. All standard stuff for a dorm I guess, but not things I'm used to. I've been living alone for over a decade now, and having all these new rules took a lot of getting used to. But it's been nice having people around to talk to, even if I now can't wait to get back to own company. I'm not used to being around people all the time. I'm looking forward to having my space and privacy back.

New things update

So far I've done 44 new things...

- donated to the Salvation Army
- ate banana creme pie
- celebrated Thanksgiving in America
- held a Human Brain
- seen the Blue Man Group
- visited Boston
- attended the wedding of a gay man and a straight woman (officiated by Reptar)
- tried a corn dog
- spent Halloween in Salem
- carved a pumpkin
- went to a pep rally
- a secret project (I'll divulge now that it was posting notes on the doors of everyone on my floor)
- tasted moose steaks
- tried lobster
- sent a money message
- went apple picking
- seen a baseball game
- ate a fluffernutter
- played Guitar Hero
- made bread from scratch
- wrote a letter to my younger self
- made green eggs and ham
- brought something from Etsy
- owned an Ipod
- swapped ipod contents with someone else
- the match box competition
- tried a new fruit
- sent a secret to Postsecret
- took my baby sister to Blackpool
- apologised to five people for things I'd done in the past
- owned llama yarn
- identified 100 things that made me happy
- saw Cirque du Soleil
- gave up my phone for a week
- set a helium balloon free with a message attached
- wrote a letter to my future self
- went to a craft fair
- got rid of 101 material possessions
- learned to crochet
- watched a superbowl
- carved my initials into a tree
- went to a ballet
- tried a peanut butter and jelly sandwich
- embroidered with seed beads

I couldn't be bothered to link to all the posts, but if you're interested click on the "new things" tab at the bottom of this post and it'll take you to them all.

I'm writing this because I still have 8 things to do, I have a month to do them in, and I'm kinda stuck for ideas. Any suggestions?

New Thing # 44

Date:- 30th November 2009
New Thing:- Donate to the Salvation Army

Branden and I went to Walmart today and standing outside was a guy collecting money for the Salvation Army, ringing his bell. I was a little disappointed that he wasn't dressed as Santa. I thought Salvation Army collectors dressed as Santa. Although, having just searched Google Images for a picture I couldn't find any Santas, so I guess I was wrong.

Anyway, I've never given money to a Salvation Army bell ringer before, so I dropped a couple of dollars in his pot. Branden said that when you donate money they're supposed to stop ringing their bell for 10 seconds, and he was right. Ten seconds of blissful silence! I never realised how annoying that bell ringing was until I was sat for an hour waiting for a bus having to listen to it. If I'd had the money I'd have donated more just to shut him up. Which is how they make their money I guess.

Life update

It occurred to me that while I've been posting about my new things, and lots of lists and things, I haven't actually given you much of an update about my life. So here we are.

Since I made the decision to drop out of university, I haven't been to any classes. I've spent my time sleeping during daylight hours - which is much more comfortable - and stitching and reading wonderful websites. That and making a trip to Boston and New York, but you know all about that if you read my blog regularly.

Emotionally I haven't had an episode, but I've had little attacks of edgy. Mostly due to tiredness and trouble sleeping, nightmares, homesickness. All the usual suspects. I really really really cannot wait to get home. I miss home. I miss the people, and my stuff and my bed. I miss crunchies, and bacon sandwiches, and charity shops and the buses and all kinds of stupid little things. I miss my brownies, and I miss Jen, and I miss Neil. I just wanna go home. And it'll be soon. 20 days until my flight to England, another 7 days after that til I get home to Stoke. Spending Christmas with my mum and sisters. Which should be... fun. Lol. I love them both dearly, but sometimes they get a little much to handle. We'll see how it goes I guess.

Physically things aren't bad. I have my constant headaches - but Ibuprofen tends to take care of that. I used to be concerned about the amount of Ibuprofen I was taking, but it's not too bad now. I still take it daily, but it's down to 3 pills a day. Usually in the morning with my anti-depressant. My ankle has been aching a whole lot, which concerns me because I haven't actually been overusing it. Maybe it's the New York trip catching up on me. I don't know. I'm pretty sure that it hurts more here in America, so maybe when I get home it'll ease up. Neil keeps telling me to go see the dr about it. I might, although I'm pretty sure he's just going to tell me I need to lose weight. Which is true I guess. But that isn't going to help my ankle in the meantime.

I am going back to Weightwatchers in the new year though. I'm comfortable with my curves. I like my figure. But I am never going to able to have children the weight I am now. With my dodgy ovaries it's almost a physical impossibility. And so I go to lose weight. With pictures of little babies all over the fridge and my wallet. There are other benefits to losing weight. Smaller wedding dress, less pressure on my ankle, fewer fat-related problems, easier to find clothes in my size, more energy. I know all this. I just don't like dieting. I like my food damnit!! I like to eat whole tubs of ice cream in one sitting. I like going back for seconds and thirds. I don't like dieting. But I guess my desire to be a mother is stronger.

At the moment I'm sat here on the sofa of our currently santa's-grotto-looking common area - Heather came home from Thanksgiving and put up all kinds of twinkly lights - watching some shows on Hulu. In a few minutes I'm going to get dressed, then go over to the cafeteria (which reminds me, I had a dream about the cafeteria - how screwed up is that?) to get carbohydrate-laden breakfast. Pancakes and waffles here I come!! After that I have errands to run. Printing, yarn store, post office, Walmart. Need to get a bigger suitcase.

I did a practice pack the other day. I brought a medium sized suitcase from a yard sale a month or so ago and I needed to see if it was big enough. I can get everything packed in that and the large one I came with, but only if I don't take the comforter Neil brought me online and only if I take my backpack as carry on as well as my purse. I really don't wanna do that. I kinda want to take the comforter back, mostly 'cause it was a present from Neil. And I would prefer to take as little carry on as possible, mostly because I'll be more comfortable while I'm waiting and transferring and things. So, we go to Walmart to buy a new suitcase. A bigger suitcase. As far as I can tell though, unless I leave the rest of my clothes behind (and I've already cut them down by half) I'm still only going to be able to resolve one issue. Unless I get really really good at packing. Again, I'll have to see. I really like the comforter.

I'm rambling. Completely. It's very early in the morning and I've been up since 5pm yesterday (with a coupla hours of napping on the sofa). According to the way I've been living, this is mid evening for me. And I'm about to go out and be busy for the rest of the day. Red Bull here I come.

I should stop typing. Stop blogging. I have nothing to say. I'm just rambling and typing nonsense. But I like to type, and I have nothing to really type at the moment, so I'm typing nonsense and rubbish. Lol. You were warned. There is a disclaimer on my blog. You were warned there would be nonsense and rambling.

Ok, I'm going now.

New Thing # 43

Date:- 26th November 2009
New Think:- eat banana creme pie

Among the delicious goodies from Thanksgiving at Marnie's, she fed me banana creme pie. I'm not sure why I've never had it before, but I'm very annoyed that I've wasted 27 years of being able to eat it. I plan on eating a lot more of it.



I'm going to get Marnie to send me her recipe, so that I can make more of it. And more and more and more and more.

New Thing # 42

Date:- 26th November 2009
New Thing:- Thanksgiving in America

I've celebrated Thanksgiving before. Jen and I had a highly successful celebration with Luke and Bryan a few years ago. And chances are that we'll do it again. However, this was the first time I celebrated Thanksgiving in America, with Americans. I went to my friend Marnie's (she's the one who fed me the moose steak. She and her husband Del invited me in with open arms and I spent the day with them, Marnie's sister Karen and her two teenage kids Kate and George - who are very cool, and Marnie and Del's daughter Mariah, her husband Christopher and their absolutely beautiful little kids Hannah and Andrew.

It was a great day. When I arrived I watched the Macy's parade on the television, which is traditional. We had delicious food, including cranberry sauce straight from the can - it was sliced! After dinner Christopher took on the role of uncle who falls asleep and snores in the living room. It was a great day!





New Thing # 41

Date:- 21st November 2009
New Thing:- Hold a human brain

Now, I could have chosen "going to the Bodies exhibit" as my new thing, but it's much more fun to have that I held a human brain. I wrote about the exhibit in this blog, but here's a bit more and some pictures too.

It (the brain) was really heavy, but the guy said it was cos of the preservation technique. That they'd basically turned it into plastic. It took a while for my brain to realise that I wasn't just holding another model of a brain, that this one came from a real person and that it was a real brain. Then I nearly dropped it. It was very cool and very gross and very fascinating all at the same time. I couldn't help but think about all the thoughts that had gone through that brain, about all the memories in there.

We weren't allowed to take photos, but here's a picture of a random brain....



And here are a few more pictures...



New Thing # 40

Date:- 21st November 2009
New Thing:- See the Blue Man Group

Again, I've already written about this here, but it was a new thing, so it counts.

I SAW THE BLUE MAN GROUP!! They absolutely rocked. I had soooo much fun.





And this is a wad of the paper from the spectacular finale.



I've been to the theater a million times, but this one had a special significance because my darling Neil brought the ticket for my birthday present. Of course, he needed prompting, but I don't mind that. Thank you again handsome!

New Thing # 39

Date:- 19th November 2009
New Thing:- Visit Boston

I won't go into too much detail about this, because I've already written about my trip here, but I've never been to Boston, so it was a new thing. It was quite possibly my least favourite new thing of the lot. Being groped, mugged and being in a crash do not add up to a good experience in a new city. Having Sideshow Bob as your landlord is kinda cool though.



It's very blurry, but if you look you can see that the hostel was run by one Robert Terwilliger. SIDESHOW BOB!!!!